A Mess In My Life

@It Was Just A Mess@

Have you ever had a thrash for a lifetime? I mean a mess which will not be cleaned anymore? When you make decisions, make sure that it will not mess your name. You must know the person surrounding you. Do not make any decisions which you are not yet sure of. That is the dirtiest mess I ever have as of now: making decisions which I am not yet sure if what will the end result of what I am doing.
It all started with some stupid stares from a person. I was still that ignorant to be immediately overwhelmed wheb someone stare at me. It is because I am not used to those when I am still graders. Then, the friends of that person always push me towards that guy. At first, I have no feelings yet to that person. But later, because of those stupid stares, I was really carried away. I already admitted that I do have feelings towards that person. The friends of that person set a conversation between just the two of us. Then, the conversation seems to be a non sense one. It was just a waste of time. But deep within me, I was already very happy because I was able to have a heart to heart talk with my crush. At that time, they already say that we do already have a mutual understanding towards each other.
Time did come, he courted me. I was really that foolish one, I did sa yes to him without knowing the real him first. In fact, it was still the second time we talk together. It just means that we still do not know each yet other. Since it was my first time to have a relationship, I still do not have any idea with what the pairs are doing when they are together. Of course, I am still too young and too ignorant to those things.
Our relationship really did not not last long. It only covered exactly three months: from September 30-December 30. This is due because we cannot understand each other. We are always contradicted. He cannot mingle with my friends and so I am to his friends too. Our trips in life do not fit. It just means that we are really not compatible. It is also too obvious that I am too young for him and he was also too mature for me. Even though our age is not that very big gap, but our attitude is that really big in gap. I am too childish for him.
I am really a foolish person, I immediately make decisions without knowing what will be the end. I am really very disappointed because I mess up my former clean record. I already have a record having a relationship with a guy. And that relationship was JUST A MESS! I am also really depressed at that time because he was also unfaithful. It means he has another girl or he did two timing. According to my friends, I am really underage in my problems. But I know that it is really God's will so that I will be able to see and distinguish the truth and not to be hurt anymore. God teach me how to make wise decisions. I aslo want to thank tje person... the person who mess uo my lifetime record...