Feelings Of These Gal

@Damn Feelings of Mine@

Almost all of the people do have feelings, of course. But have you ever experienced a feeling of loving someone who does not love you even just a little? I know that it is the hardest feeling an individual can ever have. You cannot stop it from occurring because it is just natural. But does the natural always hurt? Those are just some of the questions which bother me every hPublishour and every minute of my day. I cannot understand why are there people loving someone who does not love them in return.

Loving someone who does not love you the way you wanted is just like risking your own life. You are just fooling your own feelings. It seems that love is just a simple game to be played by lovers but it is not that easy. Maybe it is just too exaggerated to say those words but it is definitely the bare truth. It is just like pointing a gun to your own head. Nevertheless, I think it is even better to point a gun and shoot your head. Because no matter how hard you are trying to forget that guy or gal, once that specific person is already carved in your heart and mind, you can hardly get rid of them.

Why can’t they love the person who loves them? That is another question which runs unto my mind and a question which no one can answer me when I ask them about this. Individuals around me always say that “It just depends”. It depends, it depends, it depends, that is all they can say but I really need a clearer answer to enlighten my mind including my confused heart. Sometimes, I am trying to say that it is even better to become a numb one. However, I know that we should accept the simple truth-“not everybody can love us the way we do, oftentimes the person you love cannot love you back, so you have to set your heart free and be over with it”. But the question remains unanswered, how will you keep on letting go and hanging on without causing so much pain?

In my own case, it is really hard. I always say that I give up but for me, it does not necessarily mean that I do not love the guy anymore. However, I think I should pursue it, so that I will not hurt my feelings anymore. I am already really tortured! But who said that giving up will make you feel better? Damn no! It will just give you the most painful pain you have ever known. Different ideas come into my mind which made the situation very complicated.

What hurts me most? It really hurts when I see him with the gal he already courted. Yes! You read it right… the gal he already courted. That is why I want to stop this foolishness of mine! I am just waiting for nothing! Nothing! Even just a bit of what I am wanting.

I just want to shout all out what is inside me. Nevertheless, I do not want many people to know what my real feelings are. I have nothing to do but just to cry it all. Cry to let my anger, jealousy and sadness get out before I burst!

Well, I just cannot understand these damn feelings of mine. Maybe you will always see me smiling, laughing and giggling with my friends but behind those faces is an opposite one. Because I just want to hide what my real feeling is…