If We Fall In Love
By: Yeng C. & Rj J.

There will be no ordinary days for you
‘cause there is someone that cares like i do
You will have no reason to be sad anymore
I am always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you

[refrain]
You don’t have to search no more
‘cause i am someone
who will love you for sure

[chorus]S
o if we fall in love
maybe we’ll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
we can write a better song than this
If we fall in love we will have that melody in our head
If we fall in love anywhere with you would be a better place

You can watch that movie in a different light
I will be right there beside you hugging you oh so tight
(oh so tight)
How can love feels so cold and empty again
And i will keep on holding on and won’t let go
(and won’t let go)

[repeat refrain and chorus]

Feel so good when you’re around
One smile from you
(one smile from you)
and i just feel so bright

[repeat chorus]

Pag-ibig Nga Kaya
By: Christian and Rachelle Ann
Di na maalala pa’no nagsimula
Ikaw ang laging nasa isip ko bawat araw
Laging ikaw ang aking nakikita
Ano ba ang nadarama ko ‘pag ikaw ay kasama
Ganyan din ang nadarama ko
Tuwing ika’y lalapit sa akin
Ako’y parang natutulala
Di ko malaman ang sasabihin ko

[chorus]
Pag-ibig nga kaya
Pareho ang nadarama
Ito ba ang simula
Di na mapipigilan
Pag-ibig nga ito
Sana’y ‘di matapos ang nadaramang ito
Pag-ibig nga kaya ito
(pag-ibig nga kaya ito), ooh
Pagkat nararamdaman, pag-ibig ating natagpuan

Malalaman mo lamang
Ang nararamdaman
Na ako ay magiging ikaw
Damdamin nati’y magsama
Laman ng puso ko’y ganyan din (hah)
Ikaw ay narito sa akin
Di ko hahayaang mawalay
Dito ka sa aking piling

[repeat chorus]
Gagawin lahat
(gagawin lahat)
Upang ‘di magkalayo
(upang ‘di magkalayo)
Dito lang ako, di kita iiwan
Kahit sandali di ko papayagan mawalay ka sa akin
[repeat chorus]

Ohh wohh ahh

Miss Kita Pag Tuesday
Rj Jimenez

Everyday tayo ay magkasama
Magkasama lagi sa eskwela
Ang saya pag recess at lunchbreak
Tayong dalawa ay parang nagde-date,
yeah, yeah, yeah
Ganyan tayo almost everyday
Pero pag tuesday, namimiss kita
O monday,wednesday,thursday, friday, saturday
Ang lungkot ng araw pagdating ng tuesday
Everyday na sana tayong magkasama
Pero sayang talaga di pwedeng ipilit pag tuesday
I hate this day oh tuesday,
miss kita pag tuesday

Tuesday ang araw nyo ng boyfriend mo
Nakakainis di makaporma sa iyo
Sira ang recess at lunchbreak ko
Pag tuesday talagang basted ako wooh, wooh, yeah
Kumpleto na sana ang whole week ko
Kasi naman pag tuesday namimiss kita
O monday wednesday,thursday, friday, saturday,
Ang lungkot ng araw pagdating ng tuesday
Everyday na sana tayong magkasama
Pero sayang talaga di pwedeng ipilit pag tuesday
I hate this day oh tuesday, miss kita pag tuesday
pag tuesday

Ano ba'ng meron siya na wala ako?
Kung nauna lang sana ako sa'yo
Ang tuesday ko, oh anong saya

O monday, wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday
Ang lungkot ng araw pagdating ng tuesday
Everyday na sana tayong magkasama
Pero sayang talaga di pwedeng ipilit pag tuesday
I hate this day oh tuesday,
I hate this day oh tuesday
I hate this day oh tuesday

At isa pang dahilan kung ba't ayaw ko ng tuesday?
Kase naman,
coding ako pag tuesday
Coding ako pag tuesday
Coding ako pag tuesday
At miss kita pag tuesday?...

Alipin
Shamrock

Di ko man maamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin
Di ko man maisip
Sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip
Malabo man ang aking pag-iisip
Sana'y pakinggan mo ang sigaw nitong damdamin

[chorus:]
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid
Sana at iyong nariring S
ayong yakap ako'y nasasabik...

Ayoko sa iba
Sayo ako ay hindi magsasawa
Ano man ang iyong sabihin
Umasa ka ito ay diringgin
Madalas man na parang aso't pusa
Giliw sa piling mo ako ay masaya

[chorus:]
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
Sana at iyong nariring
Sayong yakap ako'y nasasabik...

[coda:]
Pilit mang abutin ang mga tala
Basta't sa akin wag kang mawawala
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
Sana ay iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako'y nasasabik
Pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi
Malamig man o mainit ang gabi
Nais ko sana iparating na ikaw lamang
Ang siyang aking iibigin

Borrowed Time
Cueshe

Every fight needs mending
Every start has an end
Like th sunrise and the sunset
That's just how it is

(refrain)
Love on borrowed time
Will never be yours nor mine
I need you like you need me
The way we ought to be

(chorus)
Oh, it's good to be true,
If our hopes and dreams come true
Wish that i had more
Of this borrowed time
If only it would last a lifetime
This bitterness inside
Is an empty space i hide
It never satisfies
Living my life in a lie

(refrain)
Love on borrowed tim
eWill never be yours nor mine
I'll just close my eyes
And it will be alright

(chorus)
Oh, it's good to be true
If our hopes and dreams come true
Wish that i had more
Of this borrowed time
If only it would last a lifetime

(bridge)
Now that you've gone away
You seem so close(repeat chorus 3x)

Hawak Kamay
By: Yeng Constantino


Minsan madarama mo kay bigat ng problema
Minsan mahihirapan ka at masasabi di ko na kaya
Tumingin ka lang sa langit,baka sakaling may masumpungan
Kundi kaya ako'y tawagin, malalaman mong
Kahit kailan!
Hawak kamay!
di kita iiwan sa paglalakbay!
dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak kamay di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay sa mundo ng kawalan

Minsan madarama mo ang mudo'y gumuguho sa ilalim ng yong mga paa
At ang agos ng problema'y nananalaytay
Tumingin ka lang sa langit baka sakaling may masumpungan
Kundi kaya ako'y tawagin, malalaman mong
Kahit kailan!
Hawak kamy! di kita iiwan sa paglalakbay! dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak kamay di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay sa mundo ng kawalan

Huwag mong sabihing nag-iisa ka
Laging isiping may makakasama
Narito ako,narito ako!

Hawak kamay! di kita iiwan sa paglalakbay! dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak kamay di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay sa mundo ng kawalan
Hawak kamay!
Sa mundo ng kawalan. . . . . .

Gitara
Parokya Ni Edgar

Bakit pa kailangang magbihis
Sayang din naman ang porma
Lagi lang namang may sisingit
Sa twing tayo'y magkasama
Bakit pa kelangan ang rosas
Kung marami namang nag-aalay sayo
Uupo na lang at aawit
Maghihintay ng pagkakataon

Hahayaan na lang silang
Magkandarapa na manligaw sayo
Idadaan na lang kita sa awitin kong ito
Sabay ang tugtog ng gitara
Idadaan na lang sa gitara

Mapapagod lang sa kakatingin
Kong marami namang nakaharang
Aawit na lang at magpaparinig
Ng lahat ng aking nadarama

Pagbibigyan na lang silang
Magkandarapa na manligaw sayo
Idadaan na lang kita sa awitin kong ito
Sabay ang tugtog ng gitara
Idadaan na lang sa gitara

Pagbibigyan na lang silang
Magkandarapa na manligaw sayo
Idadaan na lang kita sa awitin kong ito
Sabay ang tugtog ng gitara
Oooohhhh ..
Idadaan na lang.....
Sa gitara

Pangarap Lang
by: Yeng Constantino

Pangarap kong makarating sa buwan
At lumipad hanggang doon sa kalawakan
Nais kong humabol sa pag-ikot ng mundo
Sumabay sa awit ko

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Basta't ang kasama ko'y ikaw
May liwanag
Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Hangga't ang laman ng puso ko'y ikaw
May liwanag
Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Basta't ang kasama ko'y ikaw
May liwanag
Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Hangga't ang laman ng puso ko'y ikaw
May liwanag

Salamat

By: Yeng Constantino

Kung ito man ang huling awiting aawitin
Nais kong malaman mong ika’y bahagi na ng buhay ko
At kung may huling sasabihin
Nais kong sambitin, nilagyan mo ng kulay ang mundo

Kasama kitang lumuha
Dahil sa‘yo ako’y may pag-asa

Ang awiting ito’y para sa‘yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, salamat
Haaaa.. yeah yeaah

Sana’y iyong marinig, tibok ng damdamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin, ang awitin ko’y iyong dinggin
At kung marinig ang panalangin
Lagi kang naroroon, humihiling ng pagkakataon

Masabi ko sa’yo ng harapan
[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]

Kung gaano kita kailangan

Ang awiting ito’y para sa‘yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, salamat
Haaaa.. yeah yeaah

Ito na ang pagkakataon
Walang masasayang na panahon
Mananatili ka sa puso ko kailanman
Para sa yo ako’y lalaban, ako’y lalaban

Ang awiting ito’y para sa‘yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, salamat

(Repeat Chorus)

Someday

By: Nina

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and i'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Awardee...

@An Achiever@

Being an achiever when still a child is already a stepping stone to have a good future when you grow up. These serve as your capital in investing for your future life.

Since, I was young; I already got medals and ribbons. O started earning those when I am still three (3) years of age. I got a medal because I am the consistent 1^st honor student since first grading to fourth grading. I also got different ribbons like Most Friendly, Best in Science, Most Punctual and more. I was still Nursery at that time. Next is when I am already in Kinder 1. I am again recognized as the 1^st honor student. Just like in the Nursery, I was also able to get different ribbons and wards. In the next level, Kinder 2, I graduated as the valedictorian in our batch. I receive more than 5 medals at that time. It was pretty funny because after going to stage my name is again mentioned for another award. Of course, ribbons are always present.

Now, I am ready to face a new challenge. I am already Grade 1; I just got the 5^th honor. At that time, I was not interested in studying because of my classmates and because my mother is not around at that time. Grade 2 comes; I am a consistent 5^th honor again. Then I already improved the next year. I became the 4^th honor and so when I am in Grade 4. In Grade 5, I was really shocked because I ranked the 2^nd honor, but unfortunately, I was not able to maintain it. At this time I am also starting to join different contests. In fact, I joined a Science Quiz Bowl and got the 3^rd place. Extra curricular activities were really a big part of my grade. I already improved again and ranked 3^rd honor in our class. In the next year, Grade 6, there I already became very active in extra curricular activities. I joined Essay Contest in a District Meet and won the 1^st place. So I proceeded to the Division Meet but I was not able to win or just have a place. In Conference, I was the one who participated in the fields of Sport writing in English. There are many schools which are really hard to beat so again I did not have any award but at least was able to participate.

The contest which is really memorable to me is the Search for Model GSP and BSP of Cebu City. I already planned to join that contest since I was in Grade 5. At first, they were many representatives from our school. There are maybe 4 participants from the Grade 5 pupils and only two from the Grade 6: Glacy and I. It was a pretty hard contest. It was done through an interview not in a room but in front of all participants and judges. After the contest, I and my co-participants from our school already told our mentors not to expect any award because we were not able to perform that good. But the Grade 5 pupils interrupted and raid to our teacher that among all Talamban participants, I talked the interviewers most. However, I did not expect any, because I know that it is already too impossible. Two weeks later, my adviser approached me and told me that I made it to the 4^th place. I was awarded as the GSP of the year 2005-2006. It was really a big achievement of me because the Awardees for the Search for the Model GSP and BSP were placed in an article in a newspaper. I was there… It was the greatest achievement for me…

Know Your School Day

@Reflections on Teachers and Teaching@

Have you ever experienced to be the teacher of your own classmates? Or have you experienced the hardness of the teachers when they are still applying for a job?

UP High School Cebu conducted an activity in relation to the teachers and student’s task in school. This activity is called the “ Know Your School Day ”. This activity serves as the chance of the teachers to have a rest in their teaching job. They will be replaced by a student who applied for their positions. At that time, we were able to experience the hardness of lining up in applying a position for teacher. We also have a form which looks like bio data. You will line up to the teacher where you want to take his or her position.

In my case, I applied for two subjects: PE and Science A or the General Science. I chose PE because the topic a that time is badminton and I really do like that sport. I applied not because I like the game but because I also want to share what I have known when I am still in graders because I already joined some trainings dealing with that game. In Science A or General Science, I applied here because I like the subject and I also find I interesting. And so, I applied in those subjects mentioned. Unfortunately, I was not chosen as a Science A teacher by our mentor in that subject, Madam Erlinda Bravo Gallo. But in PE, it was really the opposite event, together with Jayza, also a badminton player, we approached our subject teacher Ms. Jo Ann Maquilan. We tell her what our purpose is. Then she only asked us if we were a badminton player. Then we just answer “Yes, we were”. We were very astonished because Ms. Maquilan immediately checked the space which indicates that we were already accepted. For short, it was an instant job.

So, together with Jayza and other two teachers, we taught our classmates and batch mates. But before that, Ms. Maquilan called us for a conversation. She instructed us what to do. At that time, we conducted a practical exam in Service in badminton. It was really fun. But I also realized that being a teacher is no that easy. You should know how to discipline your students in the sense hat you should know how to control them. Control no in the sense that you will abuse your own students but to teach them the right conduct. Of course, you will teach them how to respect you. Even though you are just a student but still you are doing the role of a teacher.

It was a wonderful experience for me. It was really a rare one. But at least I have experienced once. I know that next year there will be another activity like that. I will make sure that I can get a job so that I can again experience being a teacher. Maybe we do not know that someday, because of that activity, I will learn to like teaching and take Education when I graduated high school.

Star Gazers!

@ What Do Stars Tell Us about Life@

I will tell you about my experience in an overnight activity in this entry. Star Gazers Society of UP High Cebu conducted an activity for the members to be able to gaze the stars. They conducted an overnight activity. They called it the “Moon Watch”. But at that time, we were not only focusing the moon, but also the stars.

It was pretty fun because we put our mats on the ground and not in the classrooms. Of course, how can you star gaze if you are inside a room, right? On the center of the grounds, there you can find us all lying down, looking at the stars. As we are looking the stars using just our naked eye, we found different constellations. There are times also that we some binoculars and telescopes. We were able to see the craters of the moon. But the overnight was not just stargazing. We also have a talk from the famous Cebuano astronomer, Mr. Christopher Go. He talked about his latest discovery, the Red Spot of the Jupiter.

Before we go to the different fields of my experience, by the way, what do the stars tell us about life? Some may say that stars are really related to us especially when they believe in different horoscopes and syzygy, right? Well, sometimes, when I read horoscopes from the newspapers, it is the right one or should I say it all happened. According to some people, the positions of the stars do have relationship to our daily lives. Well, it is only up to you if you will believe those. For me, only God knows what will happen to the past, present and of course the future. No one can ever foretell His plans. Maybe those horoscopes or syzygy is just for fun. Some use it as their source of living. I am not discouraging you to read horoscopes but I am just telling what is in my mind.

Okay, since we are already talking about stars, I will now tell you about my experience in the latest stargazing. At first, we thought that it will really rain, because we have not seen any star. But, later, the skies became clearer and the stars are already visible. There we are already looking for different constellations, we also use a telescope not to look for the stars but instead to look at the craters of the moon. The night’s activity was not all like that. We also had a talk by Christopher Go and we also did some film showing. They showed Shutter and Princess Hours. But for me, I did not watch because I find it so boring. I just stayed where our mats are located and use my cellular phone and text. Of course I also look at the sky while texting. It was pretty fun. But it was not that really fun to the extent that no one will get sleepy throughout the night because of the fun. But unfortunately, the last overnights conducted were merrier than that time. I think that was the dreariest one. But it is just okay, as long as we have experienced another overnight. An overnight spent with my friends, teachers, moon and of course the Stars…

Science And Technology

@Science and Technology Invasion@

What will the human race of tomorrow be reminiscent? No one can predict precisely, of course. Changes are approaching too rapid and we could by hair’s breadth notice it. This is due to the extensive invasion and growing of science and technology. Maybe moment in time will come that you will be wide awakened by the noise of the take to the airing cars outside your room and dwelling place. On the other hand, maybe because of the sauntering automaton or robot coming around to wake you up.

Science and technology has fashioned an innovative world that is running or progressing at a breakneck speed. If you will only take a glance at the things around you, you would surely witness the evidences of science and technology at work. Recent discovery and inventions of computers, laptops, cellular phones with built-in cameras and videos, and internet connections have improved the means of communications. Distance is not a big deal anymore. No matter how many oceans, seas, hills and mountains are in the midst of your communication with just a click on your mouse through computers you can already exchange a few words easily to that the family member or an ally. Imagine! That very fast communication was made possible by science and technology. Science and technology is the derivation of all. In the other hand, airplanes, fast crafts and Light Railway Transit or LRT allow people to travel faster than what they are used to. Because of those transits , you will already be able to stay away from traffic jam especially in a place that is already very crammed full and over populated like Manila. Another innovation is that science has developed exciting and impressive ways for machineries to do work that the individuals are doing, right? Just like in construction works, when backhoe was still not invented many people will do the land digging in a long period of time. However when backhoe was already invented, people saved time. Companies will be able to benefit also in the sense that they will pay lesser laborers when they use machines than doing things manually. In addition, because of these changes and innovations one person will already be able to do the work of many people do. Another is refrigerators, which allow us to drink cold drinks and preserve food and air conditioners which make our rooms cooler. Even childless parents can now bear a child through artificial insemination or in vitro fertilization also known as IVF. Mothers who have problems in their fallopian tubes or any part of their reproductive organs can benefit in this modernization. The doctor will get the sperm and egg cell from the parents and let the fertilized egg grown first in the test tube and later implant it to the mother’s womb. The baby produced in this method is called a “ Test tube baby”. This method is not only applied to human beings but also to the animals.

Amazing isn’t it? Thanks for the advancement of science and technology in our country and all over the world. It has been truly made our lives improve more convenient and comfortable.

Stuffs Of Mine

Texting: A Good Source Of Friends

Well, one of my hobbies especially when it is weekend is texting. It is the way of communicating through cellular phones, beyond doubt, numerous or should I say almost all people, sophisticated or not, know that, excluding those ancient natives of course. To tell you candidly, I always budget my stipend so I can have some of my money for load. In fact, every afternoon I do not ride jeepney from our school to Ayala so that the fare should be saved. Another is… okay, okay, I will not deny it anymore, and well I think it is already too palpable. The reason why I do not spend my allowance for snack is that I have to set aside it again for the sake of my dear load. Imagine! I just let my own stomach suffer just because of load. Nevertheless, you must not save it all. In this entry, I will tell you about one of my stuff which is texting.

No need the hide the naked truth anymore, to tell you truthfully, I am really a “text addict”. Maybe I could barely carry on or should I say that really cannot survive in this dreary atmosphere surrounding me if I do not have my cellular phone, of course there should be some load. Well, in texting, you can find new associates. However, it is not good if you do have a textmate, which you still do not meet face to face, although it somewhat an exhilarating hobby, right? It is better to follow me; all of my textmates are just my classmates and schoolmates. Aside from those classmates and schoolmates whom I already mentioned, I do have textmates from my previous classmates back when I am still graders.

In texting, you will be able to be in touch with the person or schoolmate whom you so not want to talk to personally due to your bashfulness towards that certain person. You are free to communicate with that specific person already because you are not facing each other. Texting, as what I have mentioned earlier, is one of the reasons why I do have many friends. Another thing that makes this kind of hobby fascinating is that it became a good source of different updates and rumor or should I say the newest “chika”. Actually, you can already dub yourself as a “well informed” one.

In my own situation, my friends really grow in number when I get involved in texting. At first, my textmates are just my classmates and some of the 2^nd year students of UP High. When I get into a clan of Globe users, 3^rd year students were added into my list of friends within the university grounds. We call that clan as “g.freakz”. This clan is enjoyable. There are different activities and games like Deal or No Deal and more but different in mechanics to the genuine ones. Unlike the original game, the participants are already three instead of one. In fact, I already joined once. It was fun as if you were playing the real one. In terms of members, most of them are 3^rd and 4^th year students; there are no 2^nd year students and two in the 1^st years: Jayza and I. that is why at first I am still introverted to mingle with the higher years, but later on, that shyness just vanished. Until now I am still an active member of that clan…

Feelings Of These Gal

@Damn Feelings of Mine@

Almost all of the people do have feelings, of course. But have you ever experienced a feeling of loving someone who does not love you even just a little? I know that it is the hardest feeling an individual can ever have. You cannot stop it from occurring because it is just natural. But does the natural always hurt? Those are just some of the questions which bother me every hPublishour and every minute of my day. I cannot understand why are there people loving someone who does not love them in return.

Loving someone who does not love you the way you wanted is just like risking your own life. You are just fooling your own feelings. It seems that love is just a simple game to be played by lovers but it is not that easy. Maybe it is just too exaggerated to say those words but it is definitely the bare truth. It is just like pointing a gun to your own head. Nevertheless, I think it is even better to point a gun and shoot your head. Because no matter how hard you are trying to forget that guy or gal, once that specific person is already carved in your heart and mind, you can hardly get rid of them.

Why can’t they love the person who loves them? That is another question which runs unto my mind and a question which no one can answer me when I ask them about this. Individuals around me always say that “It just depends”. It depends, it depends, it depends, that is all they can say but I really need a clearer answer to enlighten my mind including my confused heart. Sometimes, I am trying to say that it is even better to become a numb one. However, I know that we should accept the simple truth-“not everybody can love us the way we do, oftentimes the person you love cannot love you back, so you have to set your heart free and be over with it”. But the question remains unanswered, how will you keep on letting go and hanging on without causing so much pain?

In my own case, it is really hard. I always say that I give up but for me, it does not necessarily mean that I do not love the guy anymore. However, I think I should pursue it, so that I will not hurt my feelings anymore. I am already really tortured! But who said that giving up will make you feel better? Damn no! It will just give you the most painful pain you have ever known. Different ideas come into my mind which made the situation very complicated.

What hurts me most? It really hurts when I see him with the gal he already courted. Yes! You read it right… the gal he already courted. That is why I want to stop this foolishness of mine! I am just waiting for nothing! Nothing! Even just a bit of what I am wanting.

I just want to shout all out what is inside me. Nevertheless, I do not want many people to know what my real feelings are. I have nothing to do but just to cry it all. Cry to let my anger, jealousy and sadness get out before I burst!

Well, I just cannot understand these damn feelings of mine. Maybe you will always see me smiling, laughing and giggling with my friends but behind those faces is an opposite one. Because I just want to hide what my real feeling is…

A Mess In My Life

@It Was Just A Mess@

Have you ever had a thrash for a lifetime? I mean a mess which will not be cleaned anymore? When you make decisions, make sure that it will not mess your name. You must know the person surrounding you. Do not make any decisions which you are not yet sure of. That is the dirtiest mess I ever have as of now: making decisions which I am not yet sure if what will the end result of what I am doing.
It all started with some stupid stares from a person. I was still that ignorant to be immediately overwhelmed wheb someone stare at me. It is because I am not used to those when I am still graders. Then, the friends of that person always push me towards that guy. At first, I have no feelings yet to that person. But later, because of those stupid stares, I was really carried away. I already admitted that I do have feelings towards that person. The friends of that person set a conversation between just the two of us. Then, the conversation seems to be a non sense one. It was just a waste of time. But deep within me, I was already very happy because I was able to have a heart to heart talk with my crush. At that time, they already say that we do already have a mutual understanding towards each other.
Time did come, he courted me. I was really that foolish one, I did sa yes to him without knowing the real him first. In fact, it was still the second time we talk together. It just means that we still do not know each yet other. Since it was my first time to have a relationship, I still do not have any idea with what the pairs are doing when they are together. Of course, I am still too young and too ignorant to those things.
Our relationship really did not not last long. It only covered exactly three months: from September 30-December 30. This is due because we cannot understand each other. We are always contradicted. He cannot mingle with my friends and so I am to his friends too. Our trips in life do not fit. It just means that we are really not compatible. It is also too obvious that I am too young for him and he was also too mature for me. Even though our age is not that very big gap, but our attitude is that really big in gap. I am too childish for him.
I am really a foolish person, I immediately make decisions without knowing what will be the end. I am really very disappointed because I mess up my former clean record. I already have a record having a relationship with a guy. And that relationship was JUST A MESS! I am also really depressed at that time because he was also unfaithful. It means he has another girl or he did two timing. According to my friends, I am really underage in my problems. But I know that it is really God's will so that I will be able to see and distinguish the truth and not to be hurt anymore. God teach me how to make wise decisions. I aslo want to thank tje person... the person who mess uo my lifetime record...

Grade School Life

@When I Am Still Grade 1-3@

Students undergo different levels in their schooling. The initial step or level is the nursery school or some may call it "prep" or "playgroup". Nevertheless, it is not obligatory to acquire this level for the reason that it is just the preparation for children ages three to five years old. Next is the elementary level. In this instance, it is now required. You cannot proceed to the next or the high school level you cannot adequately finish your six elementary years. Yes! Six years of misery, enjoyment, congregating new friends and of course learning new things. In this entry, I will tell you more about the half of my elementary years in my alma mater- Talamban Elementary School.
On my first year or they dub it Grade 1, it was not that easy for me. I met new friends, new faces and new attitudes. Therefore, I should adjust in my new environment. One thing that made it difficult for me is that I am under of some of my classmates' control. They do not permit me to write my own notes when they are still doing theirs. If I will not abide to them, they will not let me join when they engage in recreation and play games after class hours. I am also very fearful to lose associates at that time so I just tag along them. That is the main basis why every afternoon I will go and visit my other classmate, which is just my neighbor. I go there not to play but to copy her notes. Notes, which I failed to copy when our teacher tell us to do so because of those classmates of mine who have power over me. That is why, sometimes, I just pretend that I have headache so that my father will not send me to school anymore. Another thing, which contributes the hardness when I am still Grade 1, is that because my mom is not here in Cebu. At that time, she was in Cagayan de Oro working.
Change topic, let us go on my grade 2 life. In this moment of time, the condition became better. My classmates will not control me anymore. My mother is also there for me because she already resigned from her work. Then, I thought that that year will be just fine and be smoothly done. However, they are still downs of course. Downs that made me realize that I do not deserve to be tyrannized anymore. One of my classmates stole some of my stuffs like my pencil box, play money, color and my ruler. At first, my friends and I do not have any sufficient substantiation to point the finger at her, but when we scrutinized her bag, we found my belongings. That is why confronted her. At that time, I already gain knowledge of how to exchange blows.
When I am already in Grade 3, there were no conflicts anymore. If there are, we ask for forgiveness instantaneously so that it will not be an immense matter again. Maybe at that time we already know each other. There is synchronization i our classroom already. Furthermore, I am pleased for it... That's life... Ups and downs...
That's all for now... You can read more concerning my life during Grade 4,5 and 6 in the subsequent entry. Thanks for reading! May you have a pleasant day...